... my lil sister overheard my dad talking to Natasha about how I used to cut and now she told my big sister (who after calling me an attention seeking, mad girl with no real problems) told my other sister who has now gone to get my brother.
Now everyone knows and I cant take it anymore. I thought I was strong yet here I am blubbering and sobbing like a baby. I cant take it anymore, I want out, out of my house, out of my family and basically out of life. What do I have to hold on to? what do I have left?
I want it to end now! Ive had enough, I want my life to be over. I didnt even know I felt this way until these words started pouring out. I've had enough, I dont care about what happens, if I end up in hell, anywhere is better than earth.
xxx
Thought For Today: Why do I bother with thoughts for today? They do nothing to uplift my mood
rowtheboat
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It feels like the most painful thing in the world right now. But it won't always feel like that, and it's all worth holding on to.
Have you thought about accessing some professional help? Would be good to speak to someone who you feel can understand you - it really helps so much.